Those free days

I struggle on days when I have no plans, no commitments. All it takes is one dentist appointment or a therapy call to give my day structure. When the whole day is all down to me, I find it hard to land on anything to do.

I think about reaching out, to friends or my parents, for some company. Or maybe I should have a day for myself, doing my hobbies, resting, chores. The decision of action or inaction, company or solitude is such a stressful thing for me.

Every possible thing I think, almost immediately slips away. I have an idea of what to do and then my confidence in that idea is lost. Days like this feel like they’re just wasting away and then all the doubt and fear creeps in.

I wonder if anyone can relate to this feeling or would have any ideas of feeling more comfortable and self assured on days like this?

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  • Wow, it’s like you’ve reached into my head and written down how I’m feeling. I totally get what you’re coming from cause I’m exactly the same atm. Don’t really have much advice, but what I do for every day I’m off it to have a to do list, no matter how small, even like breakfast, loading the dishwasher, taking daughter to school…it makes me feel like I’ve done something, which to be fair I have, albeit small. I’m terrible actually getting out the house though, theres a woods 30mins from me which I’ve been wanting to go to for 8 years, and this week I finally managed to throw myself out the house…took an hour to get me motivated enough to go and to try and forget any anxieties, but I did it and feel like a big achievement….so even if you don’t do anything big, just do “to do lists” and it’ll feel like you’ve not just wasted your day

  • Yes to the To Do lists. Some things on my daily list are small but it’s a great feeling crossing them off one by one. Of course, not all get done though. I get teased by my family about My Reminders but I don’t care!

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