I'm having my therapy. Its a psychotherapy. I communicate with my therapist with help of pictures drawn by me before each session. I draw everything, my interests from the past, my present interests, my thoughts, experiences, situations, misunderstandings etc. He likes my pictures. I can speak and I do speak but talking about my feelings is hard for me. I often start crying although I don't want it and I don't actually know why I'm so disregulated out of nothing. It's my problem since ever. I have 12 sessions paid by my insurance company. Almost half is gone. I'm sad thinking that my therapy will be over and I will not have it with this doctor anymore. I feel that this is tge only doctor and only person, who I meet in live, who understands me. I feel kinda bonded. I probably shouldn't. I hope he will not leave me like that without directing me to further support. He knows what awful abuse I experienced in my youth and suggested specialised trauma therapy which I'm happy to take.
Is it normal? How to cope with this bond? I kinda feel like a chd in adult world.
