Useless Human

I sympathise.

I get frustrated by these things as well. I couldn't create a password to get my car insurance. It met all the requirements they stated took me 45 mins, I thought I was stupid. Every other site was ok with similar passwords, and I had to have it to get the new car. When under time pressure I have the most issues.

I couldn't use a simple app on my phone.

I couldn't understand the DVLA instructions to put my number plate on retention.

I was too scared to renew my passport online for years.

The best thing is just to be leave it and try again the next day. Or find someone to ask. Or search online, often someone else has had the same issue.

I do ridiculously hard technical things then get floored some stupid thing everyone else finds easy. I have too many questions about the instructions. I try not to worry about it, but it is stressful.

I always have problems with tech and always have. I don't have anyone to ask, even those who are in any way understanding have given up because they don't know what I'm doing thats so different to everybody else, I can put in an identical search to someone else and get totally different results.

I don't have a smart phone, I don't know how to use one, I did have one for a while, I worked out how to call people and use the adress book, but not how to answer a call or do a text, I didn't improve over the next 2 or 3 months and eventually gave up as I was missing calls and couldn't text. I don't do things like whatsapp or facebook, I get confused by apps, now it seems that apps have apps! WTF!

I can uually come up with passwords OK, its everything else that does me in. I don't see the point of looking online for answers as looking online is part of the problem, I wouldn't get any sense out of it, or nothing that I understand anyway. 

My history of messing up tech is long and complicated, going back decades, I mean I even crashed a digital egg timer! I leave myself plenty of time to do things, as I know I'm probably going to have to have several goes at it. People say, 'oh these things happen to everyone at times', they may do, but it's more remarkable when things work the second time, let alone the first.

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I think some of my feelings of uselessness, were made worse by trying to do some clothes shopping and finding nothing that would fit, or I liked or was suitable. It brought up a lot of old messaging, about how I'm to big to be a proper girl, my feet are too big, my voice to deep, I'm to tall, I must be a slag, because of the size of boobs, I'm to fat. Most of the time I don't remember it all or can ignore it, but every now and again it comes charging in and swamps me, overwhelming any defences I have against it.

When I have weeks like the last one, I just crumble and end up playing emotional whack-a-mole with stuff.

I always have problems with tech and always have. I don't have anyone to ask, even those who are in any way understanding have given up because they don't know what I'm doing thats so different to everybody else, I can put in an identical search to someone else and get totally different results.

I don't have a smart phone, I don't know how to use one, I did have one for a while, I worked out how to call people and use the adress book, but not how to answer a call or do a text, I didn't improve over the next 2 or 3 months and eventually gave up as I was missing calls and couldn't text. I don't do things like whatsapp or facebook, I get confused by apps, now it seems that apps have apps! WTF!

I can uually come up with passwords OK, its everything else that does me in. I don't see the point of looking online for answers as looking online is part of the problem, I wouldn't get any sense out of it, or nothing that I understand anyway. 

My history of messing up tech is long and complicated, going back decades, I mean I even crashed a digital egg timer! I leave myself plenty of time to do things, as I know I'm probably going to have to have several goes at it. People say, 'oh these things happen to everyone at times', they may do, but it's more remarkable when things work the second time, let alone the first.

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I think some of my feelings of uselessness, were made worse by trying to do some clothes shopping and finding nothing that would fit, or I liked or was suitable. It brought up a lot of old messaging, about how I'm to big to be a proper girl, my feet are too big, my voice to deep, I'm to tall, I must be a slag, because of the size of boobs, I'm to fat. Most of the time I don't remember it all or can ignore it, but every now and again it comes charging in and swamps me, overwhelming any defences I have against it.

When I have weeks like the last one, I just crumble and end up playing emotional whack-a-mole with stuff.