Hi all this is becoming serious now.

Hi all.  I spoke out to my GP today and he has referred me for an emergency appointment and assesment. I know nothing will happen because i have lost all faith in the mental health teams. However I read the referal notes and hes put i am a danger to myself, adults and children. This has affected me very negatively. I am greatful for him taking me seriously and i am at risk but im scared now and am unsure what I need to do ? wait home? call for an ambulance or go missing? he thinks I have been mis diagnosed and might be bi-polar. I have a voicemail saying I need immediate help.. what am i supposed to do ?

My moods were over quickly then it took an hour now its days, when im super low thats it im dying that day, when its not and a normal range i feeling somewhat fine but scared it will happen again.  I cant live like this. 

  • Good evening Nelly.  You are on my mind a bit.  I hope you are ok at this moment......and will come back here to see "whatever" when you do.

    I've had PLENTY of periods of my long life when "I CAN'T live like this" is an overwhelming reality........and yet.......somehow, I seem to keep plugging along!  I hope you will be able to have (at worst) that life experience too......but I wish for you even better than that.

    Sending you warmth and connection.

    Number. 

  • Dear Nelly1985,

    Thank you for posting and telling the community what you are going through. We are sorry to hear that you are currently scared and unsure about what you need to do. It is good that you’ve let us know what’s happening and how you feel. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay.    

    If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. Call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support . 

    The National Autistic Society does not currently operate a crisis or emergency service. We advise you to contact 999 or any of the mental health crisis lines listed on our Urgent Help Page if you are at risk of immediate harm:https://www.autism.org.uk/what-we-do/help-and-support/urgent-help 

    If you are not at immediate risk of harm, we would encourage you to speak to your GP or another health professional about this if you haven’t done so already. If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service. In England, Wales and Scotland there is now an option to speak with mental health professionals by selecting ‘option 2’ when calling NHS 111:https://www.nhs.uk/nhs-services/urgent-and-emergency-care-services/when-to-use-111/ 

    You may also find the following useful:  

    Help for anyone struggling to cope 

    • Samaritans: Call 116 123 for free, 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.  
    • Mind Infoline: 0300 1233393for information and signposting (9am to 6pm, Monday to Friday) 
    • SANEline: 0300 304 7000for anyone experiencing a mental health problem or supporting someone else (4.30pm to 10.30pm, every day)  
    • Shout 85258:a free, confidential, 24/7 text messaging support service for anyone struggling to cope.  

    We hope this is helpful to you.  

    Kind regards 

    Rosie Mod  

  • Good morning  Nelly.

    I'm about and will be checking In throught the day.

  • So you've written this post at approx midnight UK time & it's now 7am.  Likely things have moved on, so it could well be that anything I say is out of date or no longer relevant.  I am sorry for that.

    I hope that if you needed help & support during the night, that it came.  I hope that if you are expecting interventions today - that they arrive.  Please contact your GP again, or make use of whatever numbers you've been given to push the urgency should you not hear back.  Promises don't necessarily translate into action. 

    Wishing you the best.   Reach out to 111 if things get hard. 

  • will do thanks, if i dont hear I will be going missing, vulnerable adult or not. 

  • I know that feeling too.  I have come to understand that "we" can endure more than we think we can.  Thank you for responding....I will sleep better.....and I hope you can do so too.  It doesn't take a lot to keep up going!

    Get some kip.....and we can talk again in the morning mate.

  • I will take your advice rtight now. Just note I cant hold on much longer am at my whits end. 

  • Breathe Nelly.  We've all had crises!  It is good that yours come, and then go, quickly........even if that isn't the case at the moment.  You are self-aware........just prone to a form of panic.  You are not alone in that.

    It sounds to me like your GP was "gaming" the system to help you......the GP used words and phrases that they knew would get you help as quickly as possible.  Don't focus on those words......just be thankful to the GP that they took you seriously, and wanted to help you.  That is the message I would take from those words.

    There are folk here who would be happy to help you stay sane whilst you traverse the "feelings" roller-coaster that you are experiencing.....because we KNOW what you speak of.

    Don't go "missing."  I can say that with authority sister!  If you were to go "missing" then you would feel the same as you do now, but just be MORE alone!!  That ain't progress!!

    You ask what you are supposed to do.......and I say again.....BREATHE!!  You have connected with me tonight.  I'll be to bed very soon, but that doesn't diminish the fact that you connected with me.  That is a WIN!  You are OK mate.  It just feels super sheet [not allowed to swear here] at the moment.

    Take the win.  Be pleased.  I take you seriously, and your GP took you seriously.  Now.......just breathe........get some sleep......I'll be around again in the morning......so let us chat then.

    Congrats for finding "here" and writing clearly.  You did good.  All is "better-than-you-think", I promise.

    Yours

    Number.