Sadness

I’ve had the worst time mentally, this weekend. This is definitely a significantly extreme moment in my life. I’m a bit shocked at the desperate, hopeless state I’ve found myself in. I think what has contributed is lack of connection & relationships. The therapist said I have an insecure attachment style. I just cut people off, although I feel I have justifiable reasons. It still causes harm. Because of this something in me has changed. I feel very reluctant to have relationships/friendships because I can’t sustain them. I get so very overwhelmed by all social interactions. It’s afterwards I go over what has been said & what all of the micro expressions meant. If everything is ok. It causes me such mental torture…I seem to have decided the less I interact the better but I’m so lonely. This has left me feeling very sad and alone. I have cancelled everything this weekend and just sat with these feelings and cried a lot. I can’t currently think of anyone I would share these thoughts and feelings with. I know from experience that from this state of desperation can come contemplation and then positive change can happen. It is even more shocking to experience such extreme feelings & thoughts when externally nothing is “wrong”. There’s is so much I have & am to be grateful for. 

I'm so sorry to hear you've been going through such a difficult time this weekend. Having autism can be so isolating, I completely relate with being withdrawn, I spend most of my time withdrawn from the rest of the world, even though I DO want to interact with others.

It’s overwhelming and it’s understandable that it makes you feel so alone and emotional. I think every one here can relate to feeling like this at times.

I’m so glad you felt able to talk about it here. We’re all in the same boat really, and it’s a big relief for me personally knowing this community is here. I feel like I have so many friends here, people who care, and I hope I can be a friend to people here when they need that shoulder to cry on.

Take care of yourself, talk when you need to, there will always be help and support here I think. We autistics have to look out for each other. X

I'm so sorry to hear you've been going through such a difficult time this weekend. Having autism can be so isolating, I completely relate with being withdrawn, I spend most of my time withdrawn from the rest of the world, even though I DO want to interact with others.

It’s overwhelming and it’s understandable that it makes you feel so alone and emotional. I think every one here can relate to feeling like this at times.

I’m so glad you felt able to talk about it here. We’re all in the same boat really, and it’s a big relief for me personally knowing this community is here. I feel like I have so many friends here, people who care, and I hope I can be a friend to people here when they need that shoulder to cry on.

Take care of yourself, talk when you need to, there will always be help and support here I think. We autistics have to look out for each other. X

You're welcome

TismTisnt said:

Glad to hear you’re having a better day…love your drawings

Thank you x.

Gosh, thank you x

Glad to hear you’re having a better day…love your drawings