Constant stress about everything

Hi,

I'm 22, and recently diagnosed with ASD. 

I recently found out that my grandmother has stage 4 pancreatic cancer. I'm extremely stressed out about this, and don't know what to do. 

It took me 8 years of near constant suffering, but I've finally found a young woman who likes me, and we're starting a relationship. She is overwhelmingly positive and sweet, but I periodically get extremely stressed about this. This largely subsided after she reacted very positively to my Valentine's day message and congratulated me with it, but I still get disturbing thoughts when she doesn't immediately respond (most recently, a thought that she blocked me. Obviously turned out incorrect, but that's what I felt). I'm supposed to be going out with her on Saturday, and extremely anxious. 

On top of that, I'm finding it difficult in university. I was recently bullied out of a society because of two people who had fabricated a report against me. After theirs was thrown out and my report triggered an investigation when I provided sufficient evidence that they fabricated their report, I lost 16 friends from that society. 

Yesterday, someone who did not contribute to my experiment at all (literally doing 0% of it and distracting everyone the first time) began saying I did everything incorrectly and demanding explanations, which caused me to shut down and freeze. My friend, who had previously angrily said 'He was ill' when I asked him what he was doing by not contributing, also angrily addressed me and asked me to explain it to him, who was saying things like 'OK, I'll assume that was a yes' (although she apologised later). 

Finally, I'm having problems in my accommodation. A spoilt, entitled person living with us has taken a habit of blaming absolutely everything that goes wrong in the kitchen on me. He has, for example, claimed that I broke our oven and microwave (despite being absent both times) and went whining to the property management when I said those who did not use the bins should not take them out, causing the property management to threaten everyone with fines. 

Finding it very stressful and difficult at times. 

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  • I am so very sorry about your grandmother. Cancer is such a horrible disease and it’s an awful to have to experience for both the sufferer and loved ones who watch it. First and foremost give yourself time to process this, be kind to yourself. Try not to overthink things easier said than done I know but please try as that will only make you feel worse.

    And most importantly spend time with your Gran. Enjoy your time with her, make happy memories with her. That’s what I did with my birth mum and my sister did with me. Mum is sadly gone now, I miss her more than words could ever describe but I did spend so much time with her and am grateful for that as I can now look back and remember some really good times with her.

    Just remember that everything you’re feeling right now is completely normal, it’s ok and more than understandable to feel stressed and upset right now.
    Please keep talking if you need to, there will always be people here who care and want to support you during this difficult time.

    Sending you hugs. Heart

    she reacted very positively to my Valentine's day message and congratulated me with it

    This was so heartwarming to read and I’m glad you have her in your life right now because this is something else for you to try to focus on and will help you during these difficult times. It’s easy to think the worse, like she’s blocked you BUT when you get such thoughts ask yourself this very important question,

    Why would she block me?
    Have I been horrible to her?

    I’m sure you will be able to answer both with a NO! And then think rationally, she’s probably just busy she’ll respond soon when she has more time. It’s easy for us to think the worst but it is rarely that way. The what if thoughts can be a nightmare and when you get them, try to answer them calmly and don’t overthink or you’ll be in a spiral of anxiety.

    Dormouse already gave you an amazing response so I will end my post here just saying that though things are bad right now you will get through this and though it must seem really unlikely things will get better. It doesn’t rain forever x.
    Keep the faith, keep strong and please be kind to yourself.

    Thinking of you and sending positive vibes and virtual hugs your way. X

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  • I am so very sorry about your grandmother. Cancer is such a horrible disease and it’s an awful to have to experience for both the sufferer and loved ones who watch it. First and foremost give yourself time to process this, be kind to yourself. Try not to overthink things easier said than done I know but please try as that will only make you feel worse.

    And most importantly spend time with your Gran. Enjoy your time with her, make happy memories with her. That’s what I did with my birth mum and my sister did with me. Mum is sadly gone now, I miss her more than words could ever describe but I did spend so much time with her and am grateful for that as I can now look back and remember some really good times with her.

    Just remember that everything you’re feeling right now is completely normal, it’s ok and more than understandable to feel stressed and upset right now.
    Please keep talking if you need to, there will always be people here who care and want to support you during this difficult time.

    Sending you hugs. Heart

    she reacted very positively to my Valentine's day message and congratulated me with it

    This was so heartwarming to read and I’m glad you have her in your life right now because this is something else for you to try to focus on and will help you during these difficult times. It’s easy to think the worse, like she’s blocked you BUT when you get such thoughts ask yourself this very important question,

    Why would she block me?
    Have I been horrible to her?

    I’m sure you will be able to answer both with a NO! And then think rationally, she’s probably just busy she’ll respond soon when she has more time. It’s easy for us to think the worst but it is rarely that way. The what if thoughts can be a nightmare and when you get them, try to answer them calmly and don’t overthink or you’ll be in a spiral of anxiety.

    Dormouse already gave you an amazing response so I will end my post here just saying that though things are bad right now you will get through this and though it must seem really unlikely things will get better. It doesn’t rain forever x.
    Keep the faith, keep strong and please be kind to yourself.

    Thinking of you and sending positive vibes and virtual hugs your way. X

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