I feel so alone every day. I like autism because it means I'm unique, I have a near photographic memory and I can mimic nearly every voice I hear, taste/smelll colours but I am alone. I'm not from Britain and we moved from my birthplace nearly ten years ago, I had no friends I never have anywhere but I miss the familiarity and homely feeling. I constantly feel I am trying to process moving even now but my brain can't process it. Processing is something I'm still trying to get my head round. I struggle with focusing on one thing at a time so I think everything quickly becomes too much to handle.
I like to do creative things
- bracelet making (my fave)
- card making
- drawing
- painting
- writing
There's a craft group on Tuesday evenings that I've been thinking of doing. It's basically where people go to talk abut their interested crafts whether it's making braclets or drawing or whatever, you can take in some things you've made already if you want to.
I emailed the woman who runs it and she sent back a really nice reply.
Part of me wants to go.but my anxiety is giving me hell over it. My thoughts are all What If, you know the annoying I'm going to ruin this for you thoughts.
Has anyone here been to a craft group before? Did you enjoy it? Positive experience? I haven't been to a group before but I am interested in giving it a try. A room full of people sounds terrifying but the woman I emailed said normally there's less than twenty people who attend the group. That still sounds like a lot of people to me but I'm so sad and lonely that at this point I feel I want to at least try, otherwise I'm always on my own idling in my room and that's not the best thing for me 24 hours a day.
