Newly diagnosed and struggling

To start I don't usually post online anywhere but I am really struggling, in need of advice or just some reassurance I don't know. I am 24, F, diagnosed two months ago. I have struggled with my mental health forever (anxiety, depression etc) but my life is getting smaller and smaller and I am so scared I'm not going to get out of this. I have so much anxiety  all the time, I barely leave my room let alone my house. I feel nauseous and can't eat properly. I work 2days a week that sometimes i cannot mange without getting overwhelmed and leaving work early, I am in the process for applying to PIP but am very worried about what my future looks like with the current direction its going. I see friends maybe once  a month, the rest of the time I don't even really message anyone I can go days without talking to anyone. I am incredibly lonely and just feel myself regressing so much. I used to have a pretty full life, work full time spend my weekends with friends, go on holiday. I am so scared of people and feel I am constantly in trouble, having to explain justify and apologise for my actions (or lack thereof) to everyone in my life. I just feel so uncomfortable all the time.

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  • hello maehart, i am no expert, having only joined this community a few days ago. the amount of replies i have had to my one post have truly staggered me, and made me feel as if i am not alone. i have a few years on you. i am a 52 yo M. i am on an NHS waiting list, to be diagnosed. like you, i suffer from depression and anxiety. i always thought i was just shy, awkward and a bit flaky. then there's the oddity of wanting to be on your own, while at the same time being extremely lonely because you dont know how to let anybody in. its a lifelong frustration of mine as i am unable to connect with anyone on anything other than a superficial level. i have just been made redundant at work, which was my safe space. i want to go travelling, but i fear my senses would be overloaded. a ex-colleague of mine who has an autistic child told me last week not to be  afraid to be myself and you will be liked for who you are. its a big leap to make to let your shield down. i am unique, you are unique. be safe

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  • hello maehart, i am no expert, having only joined this community a few days ago. the amount of replies i have had to my one post have truly staggered me, and made me feel as if i am not alone. i have a few years on you. i am a 52 yo M. i am on an NHS waiting list, to be diagnosed. like you, i suffer from depression and anxiety. i always thought i was just shy, awkward and a bit flaky. then there's the oddity of wanting to be on your own, while at the same time being extremely lonely because you dont know how to let anybody in. its a lifelong frustration of mine as i am unable to connect with anyone on anything other than a superficial level. i have just been made redundant at work, which was my safe space. i want to go travelling, but i fear my senses would be overloaded. a ex-colleague of mine who has an autistic child told me last week not to be  afraid to be myself and you will be liked for who you are. its a big leap to make to let your shield down. i am unique, you are unique. be safe

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