Newly diagnosed and struggling

To start I don't usually post online anywhere but I am really struggling, in need of advice or just some reassurance I don't know. I am 24, F, diagnosed two months ago. I have struggled with my mental health forever (anxiety, depression etc) but my life is getting smaller and smaller and I am so scared I'm not going to get out of this. I have so much anxiety  all the time, I barely leave my room let alone my house. I feel nauseous and can't eat properly. I work 2days a week that sometimes i cannot mange without getting overwhelmed and leaving work early, I am in the process for applying to PIP but am very worried about what my future looks like with the current direction its going. I see friends maybe once  a month, the rest of the time I don't even really message anyone I can go days without talking to anyone. I am incredibly lonely and just feel myself regressing so much. I used to have a pretty full life, work full time spend my weekends with friends, go on holiday. I am so scared of people and feel I am constantly in trouble, having to explain justify and apologise for my actions (or lack thereof) to everyone in my life. I just feel so uncomfortable all the time.

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  • Hello maehart.

    You are not alone in the feelings that you express.....because I feel the same.....and i also share your sense of an endless creeping "crush" of those feelings, ie things are getting worse!

    It seems to be OK if you feel exactly like one or other of the few powerful tribes that have built up a head of steam for themselves.....but if you feel differently, then enforced isolation seems mandated, or else you are expected to endlessly explain, justify and apologise for how you think or what matters to you.  It is exhausting and it is lonely.

    So....I'm sorry that I don't have helpful links to share with you......but I thought that a very simple human  "you are NOT alone in what you feel" might just hopefully help to make you feel a little bit less isolated in your loneliness.  Times are hard for different people.....but there are plenty of us out there....somewhere...its just hard (increasingly so) to find each other and to find ourselves a safe space to support and improve how we feel.  Let's keep searching.

    I wish you well.

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  • Hello maehart.

    You are not alone in the feelings that you express.....because I feel the same.....and i also share your sense of an endless creeping "crush" of those feelings, ie things are getting worse!

    It seems to be OK if you feel exactly like one or other of the few powerful tribes that have built up a head of steam for themselves.....but if you feel differently, then enforced isolation seems mandated, or else you are expected to endlessly explain, justify and apologise for how you think or what matters to you.  It is exhausting and it is lonely.

    So....I'm sorry that I don't have helpful links to share with you......but I thought that a very simple human  "you are NOT alone in what you feel" might just hopefully help to make you feel a little bit less isolated in your loneliness.  Times are hard for different people.....but there are plenty of us out there....somewhere...its just hard (increasingly so) to find each other and to find ourselves a safe space to support and improve how we feel.  Let's keep searching.

    I wish you well.

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