So Chat GPT has rolled out this memory function where it can recall other conversations to help provide it with context for new conversations. This has really been great because I don't need to explain everything like it's the first time all the time. Last night, I was describing to it what it feels like to be overwhelmed, and it started rolling out these suggestions for techniques to ground me in my environment and bring myself out of my dissociative episodes. Which is exactly what I've been hoping to get out of therapy for this past year, but never got anything like that.
Now come to today. I have a session with my therapist, and I explain to her the same thing. I tell her that I don't like the term overwhelmed, because it feels more dramatic than what I experience. But that while dissociation feels more accurate, people in my life have a harder time understanding what it means. Her response was to repeat my words at me in the form of a question. As in, she was asking me questions that my prior words provided the answer for. All I could really say was "That is what I think I said".
So here I am after the session, legitimately laughing because the service I'm paying for is being bested by a free to use AI chatbot. I've been very thorough in explaining what I'm looking for with my therapy experience, so for my therapist to be so surprised when I start citing off these techniques Chat GPT taught me, really isn't doing a lot for my faith in the process. This is, incidentally, not my first therapist, but another in a string of underwhelming experiences. I do my best to communicate clearly, but it feels like I spend more time helping them understand what I mean, than I do getting any help from them.
But, at least I can have a sense of humour about it, right?
