Published on 12, July, 2020
It's difficult to explain, but I have caused people a lot of suffering and loss of life through my thoughts, images I've got in my head, and not acting on things that could save them.
I'm currently working on writing a novel. I cant continue to even think about it because I know that somewhere there are people living similar lives to my characters. If i do something that distresses or kills one of my characters then I know someone in real life will die.
There are links between my thoughts and incidents that happen locally or are reported on the news. I am always seeing risks amd if I don't remove them and someone gets hurt, I am responsible for that.
When i cross a road, I get feelings that the cars I've stopped at the crossing as going to be in accidents and people will die because of me.
I get a sense when bad things have happened to others and I am to blame in one way or another.
I know I'm harming people and I really can't cope with this.
I'm mindful of rule 13 (Users should not provide medical or legal advice to other users. Giving medical or legal advice can have serious consequences, even if you’re trying to help another member. Please suggest they get advice from a professional).
In that context, I'd suggest consulting your GP. The following resource may also be helpful in respect of accessing support:https://www.ocduk.org/overcoming-ocd/accessing-ocd-treatment/