Published on 12, July, 2020
Hey everyone, the name of this thread may sound a bit dangerous or ridiculous. But it’s related to my issue. While having a meal I write with cutlery or with finger in the air. I can describe the feeling of it as my brain goes to some different state and I forget where I am and what I’m doing, I can merely control myself, what I write in the air is usually some words of a conversation that I hear from other room or from outside, or my own thoughts echoing in my head. Is it some sort of echolalia or stimming… I have no idea. Quite often I also repeat words in whisper but this is less noticeable. Writing with cutlery in the air however looks hmm crazy or weird. It’s not an issue on daily basis because I usually eat alone and I happily do what I want. But soon I have to attend my brothers wedding. I decided to not skip it, ans I anlways happily do with other holidays and parties, although it’s gonna be tough for me, so many people and everything around. I’m not gonna stay long but I wanna show up. Writing with a fork in a restaurant would be embarrassing, I think it’s even understatement. Is there anyone who can relate to this? Any answer or advise would be appreciated. This forum is the only place where I can share it. My family has already seen me with the fork in the air and I don’t want to cite what they said about it. It also happened to me in a public place few times in the past. I do it for years.
I can conduct music, with my arms and body, that is only playing in my own head. If I'm with people, I pretend (for their sake) that I am 'stretching' ..... or limbering up for exercise.
If I had your behaviour (sky writing,) I would probably try to lower my arms and just hover the fork over the plate, and allow myself to write "down low" above the plate....or even put down the fork, and write with my finger under the table.
Just a thought, for you.
I do the same. I always have since I was little..almost like I'm conducting an invisible orchestra.
Thank you! Yes, sometimes I write with my finger on my leg. I will try this one. Sometimes I wonder how mysterious human brain is… and your case is also interesting! I remember having my own music in my head when I sit next to some engine making monotonous noise. Then I add other sounds to it in my head and it plays I feel like I really listen to music. I could do it while sitting next to my granny’s old Russian refrigerator or in the tram.