Hi everyone,
I am bragging. I am very proud. Yesterday against all instincts i managed to control an emotion and not perform my usual knee jerk reaction.
I got a minor telling off at work for something i had handled badly. The reprimand was justified, and i accepted it graciously. No harm done and no one is really upset with me. It was a minor minor thing.
Afterwards my emotions came on so strong, as they always do. I cant bare bad feeling and my feelings on such things far outweigh the event itself.
So i fist felt like i wanted to run away. Leave the office and hide. Then i thought i was going to cry. Then i had my usual idea of making better by punishing myself. I have a knife in my drawer in my desk for just this purpose.
I breathed for a few minutes and tried to calm down. It took me a few hours to feel 'better', but i avoided all of the above. Fist time in a long time.
Processing situations like this is mentally draining though, for me at least, but i did it!!!
