Ruminating over possible conversations and dissociate.

Don't know if anyone else experiences this, but I've been having it a lot the past week. 

Sometimes when my mind wanders it starts to daydream/ruminate on possible conversations I can have with people, particularly those close in my life. It may be in relation to something that's already happened and the conversation is like me trying to predict what my next interaction could be with them. I always get so caught up in it that it's like I dissociate from the real world and I'm having emotional reactions to the conversation in my head. Usually frustration and agitation.

It's really upsetting as I waste emotional energy on this and chances are the conversation will never happen in the real world. I just get lost in fantasy when I just want to feel real and in the world.

I don't know if I've explained this right but does anyone else get this? 

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  • Yeah I do that constantly. I think I subconsciously run scenarios and possible conversations . Sometimes I can get almost deja vu where a scenario and reality collide. What really upsets me is when something totally out of the blue happens and it throws me.

    I think it's all part of masking, I don't like to stand out and make mistakes so I check and double check and have an answer for most things.

    It can be frustrating and tiring.

    Take care 

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  • Yeah I do that constantly. I think I subconsciously run scenarios and possible conversations . Sometimes I can get almost deja vu where a scenario and reality collide. What really upsets me is when something totally out of the blue happens and it throws me.

    I think it's all part of masking, I don't like to stand out and make mistakes so I check and double check and have an answer for most things.

    It can be frustrating and tiring.

    Take care 

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