Here I am again, back on NAS to share yet another...depressing feeling of mine in sadness and rant.
The other day ago, when I had to comment on an artist's profile from DeviantArt, saying about why that guy doesn't want to say anything to me, I got told by another person, "I suggest giving out context, because this site isn't really social media." Now that that's been said... I ask myself, is NOTHING on the internet ever considered "social media" anyway or anymore? I ALWAYS thought it was the case...because I usually post hundreds of comments on DeviantArt, speaking perfectly normal about what I enjoy and genuinely think conversations are legitimate there, but then OTHERS say, "No it's a site for art sharing, not talking and making friendships and all that stuff."
...Why? Why did this had to happen on me? As if it's really that "true" after all? But then I feel, even if I DID choose to attempt writing comments, make conversations and build new friendships with others on REAL social sites like Facebook, Instagram and even the grand YouTube itself, thinking it COULD work this time, there STILL would be people saying into my face with lashment, "They are not social sites either. You are just wasting your energy and time. Grow up, pal."
Sigh... Whatever I say and do, no one cares or believes me in even the slightest, as if I'm the main jerk of all jerks, when I'm not even trying to be. All I want is just normal and nice conversations for things I like (and NOT the things I don't know or don't interest me much, such as the real life sense which ALWAYS has to plonk me back in for no reason, since I only know gaming as my all-time specialty), and make new friends which, of course, is far from easy, put it that way, no matter how kind or careful I try in the first place. What is it with people in general and all their mixed up natures and so on? Why is this whole world so mad, cruel and unfair? Why am I so unlucky?
I'm sorry, but I had to let my own feelings out again, especially when something is not going right for me at certain times like this. I know that everyone gets problems as well, but how does it even feel to be yourself, being born in this imperfect world with nothing and think that you're not worthy of anything? I always felt that even over the years, and it still gets to me. But again... DeviantArt NOT considered "social"? Come on, it's the only simple place I do for talks nowadays, but how unlucky me to not get enough attention for things I like that often, which again is Pokemon. P.O.K.E.M.O.N. If I went back to YouTube again after my old account departure from it LONG ago in 2010...maybe it WOULD be a much better chance of receiving replies and make possible new friends for things I like EARLY? But, on the big minus side, I know that YouTube has extreme hatred and negativity all over, with a lot of mean and sarcastic commenters and video authors taking place. Sigh...
...What am I supposed to do, say, act or whatever? I tried all I can for so long...and it's nothing, basically. But sorry that I had to make a rant here, yet it still means well and pays off. Ty to be easy on me...
