Tonight I had a milkshake. I forgot to check my cup and it turned out it was dusty and there were big bits of dust, I drank some of the drink before I realised and now I feel so anxious in case I'm sick.
I had a meltdown also.
I'm normally so careful and almost always look for dust or dirt.
The one time I didn't, it happens.
My parents say it won't make me ill but my head and anxiety say it will.
Why can't life just be simple?
Why do I have to be this way?
Sometimes, I really hate autism.
