I have the most toxic family imaginable with no support and I'm undiagnosed. It's bad. I try to keep myslef to myself. I have advanced colonic diesese and IBS. I have to keep a bowl next to me at all times in case I need to puke which is daily. I live at my mother's house and she went to my bedroom door last week out of the blue, and suggested that she should give me a knife so I can kill myself with it. I'm not even rude to people and get taken avantage of. She has cut me out of her will and told me today that the only conversation wwe can have is regarding my pet cat.
God speed.
