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Do you ever feel like all change is bad?

Peter

I often feel like a change is bad it seems like every single event that happens that’s out of my control is always negative. There just never seems to be a situation where something spontaneously happens in your life without you expecting it and the change ends up being good rather than bad.

Every time a place I love has a sign on its door, every time a friend or a family member tells me they need to talk. Every news article about some scheme the council has for the city, my heart is filled with dread because it feels like something is about to change and it’s going to be bad.

The last good thing in my city was probably the new cinema opening up, even though it’s a nice cinema it has taken business away from the other cinema which is now struggling. The last good thing to happen in my family was probably my brother getting a job. And that wasn’t really so spontaneous, I helped him a lot trying to get that job, and now he’s got it unfortunately he just doesn’t have as much time to support me anymore which I appreciate of course. The last really good change in my friendship group, well I think the last time I made a new friend was probably something like 2017.

It didn’t used to be like this. As an autistic person I’ve always had a complicated relationship with change. But it used to be that even if bad change seems like it often outnumbered good change there was still good change there. People would leave my life but new people would come in. The café me and my mum used to like going to might close but a new place would open.

It’s been so long since I discovered a new thing I could enjoy. A new class I could go to, A new club night I could regularly attend, A new attraction I could patronise, A new person I could really connect with.

It’s been so long since I met anyone I felt I could develop romantic feelings for. And I have to say that even though I’ve never been in a serious relationship to miss it, I miss just having someone I feel that way about.

At what stage in our lives do good spontaneous things stop happening? At what stage do we stop meeting new people we can make a connection with? stop just stumbling onto things that we can enjoy? To actually make good things happen in your life is such an effort and it’s feels more and more like banging your head against a brick wall as life goes on.

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  • For me, it very much depends on what it is that's going to change.

    A good many years ago, the green light had been given to demolish a local hospital, which I was completely against. The original hospital building had once been a Georgian mansion. In my opinion, it was (from the outside, at least) a beautiful building steeped in local history. Had the plan been to keep the original building and convert it into apartments, it's a change I feel I could have embraced. Sadly, the land it was built on now forms part of a housing estate.

    On the flip side of the coin, an area of my local town was flattened some years ago to build a Tesco Extra. I felt it was what my town desperately needed as it had turned into something of a ghost town. As far as I was concerned, it was a change for the better.

    Peter said:
    At what stage in our lives do good spontaneous things stop happening? At what stage do we stop meeting new people we can make a connection with?

    With regard to the first question you posed, I find myself wondering if it's a matter of lowering your expectations... possibly. I guess it depends on what you consider to be good spontaneous things. I can only speak for myself, but there have been times in my life when spontaneous good things have happened... Simple things that I have perhaps been oblivious to, or not fully appreciated. I've no idea if any of this is making any sense, so apologies if I'm doing a lousy job of trying to explain what I mean.

    As for meeting new people we can make a connection with, this is something many of us can struggle with, especially as we get older. To be honest, I think it can be something NTs can struggle with too. With the odd exception, the handful of friends I consider to be part of my 'inner circle' and feel a sense of connection with are people that I've known for decades.

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  • For me, it very much depends on what it is that's going to change.

    A good many years ago, the green light had been given to demolish a local hospital, which I was completely against. The original hospital building had once been a Georgian mansion. In my opinion, it was (from the outside, at least) a beautiful building steeped in local history. Had the plan been to keep the original building and convert it into apartments, it's a change I feel I could have embraced. Sadly, the land it was built on now forms part of a housing estate.

    On the flip side of the coin, an area of my local town was flattened some years ago to build a Tesco Extra. I felt it was what my town desperately needed as it had turned into something of a ghost town. As far as I was concerned, it was a change for the better.

    Peter said:
    At what stage in our lives do good spontaneous things stop happening? At what stage do we stop meeting new people we can make a connection with?

    With regard to the first question you posed, I find myself wondering if it's a matter of lowering your expectations... possibly. I guess it depends on what you consider to be good spontaneous things. I can only speak for myself, but there have been times in my life when spontaneous good things have happened... Simple things that I have perhaps been oblivious to, or not fully appreciated. I've no idea if any of this is making any sense, so apologies if I'm doing a lousy job of trying to explain what I mean.

    As for meeting new people we can make a connection with, this is something many of us can struggle with, especially as we get older. To be honest, I think it can be something NTs can struggle with too. With the odd exception, the handful of friends I consider to be part of my 'inner circle' and feel a sense of connection with are people that I've known for decades.

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