Hi everyone, I haven’t posted on here I don’t think apart from an introduction to myself on the other section of the forums. Nice to see you all.
I’m really struggling with my mental health alongside my ASD. I Keep thinking I am a failure and whenever I worry about things I keep thinking that people go to work or the war in Ukraine and that my worries are nothing compared to that.
I keep seeing adverts for animals which are abused and it really upsets me, I hate animals being in danger and harmed. Just makes me feel extremely guilty. I want to spend my little savings donating to charity but Mum got cross with me and said these ads are designed to suck you in. I just feel so upset about these animals.
Also, my lovely laptop that I game on which I’ve only had six months has been damaged. I was throwing the ball for my parent’s dog and it hit my laptop screen. The ball was a rubber one. There was no damage and I looked under the light and couldn’t see anything. Then a few days later I noticed a flicker on the integrated camera. I feel so stupid for letting this happen. I had taken out an accidental protection cover with the manufacturer and they’re going to do a 360 check and repair anything that may need repairing with their own genuine parts. I’m waiting for the courier to collect it today. My anxieties are through the roof, will they come. Will it be damaged in transit? What happens if it gets lost? Will they repair it properly etc? I have packed it in the exact box and packing materials that the laptop came in.
Mum doesn’t understand why I’m so distressed at the moment and I understand I am overreacting. I am on welfare benefits and feel guilty to have been treated to the laptop in the first place, but to then damage it when I never ever damage things and am so careful.
I feel like I’m sinking into a deep hole. Sorry to go on, any words of comfort or advice greatly appreciated!
