It’s been a heavy day part of which was an intense meeting with my solicitor, then the bus journey home was its usual hideousness of over stimulation, nouse and smelly people and too too all close up, then the street ferals are using my gates as a goal post, ball against windows set off house alarm twice, god knows maybe more damage to car too, some random guy turns up and the woman next door is sat on our wall like some kind of supervising gnome egging on the kids, and my cats are frightened, and I’m frightened, and and and …. no where feels safe, and I include this forum. My partner is on her way over and I’ve taken diazepam and trying to hang on, but it’s sooooo hard. In the past this sort of train of events has cascaded to suicide attempts, the last one being in October 2022 every so very nearly successful. There’s various statistics about adult autistic women and the latest I heard, on the the Christene M (?) documentary was that we are 12x more likely to attempt to end our own lives than the general population, I absolutely believe this.
Emma
