Busy Head and worry

Sometimes I have a busy head when I go to bed. I often don't have a particular reason. This stops me falling asleep, then my mind starts wondering.

One of the things I get concerned about is trying to remember where things are. Last night was one of those times. When things were on paper I had everything organised under sections, so if anything was needed I could go and find a phone number, reference etc or I could look in the phone directory. Now most things are online I find it so much harder as I have so many passwords to remember. Then I start thinking about if the internet went down or a power cut or the internet was slow. 

I used to think at least the phone doesn't depend on power, then our provider changed us to fibre optic and the copper line went so that relies on power.

I find it tiring these days that there seem to be so many more things to think about. Are there others who feel the same?

  • I gave up trying to keep my desk organised at work. I was forever moving things and in the end it was futile. I like things to be right and just so but often it doesn't happen. Then I realised, it doesn't matter. Yes it takes up brain power having it messy, but it takes up more trying to keep it tidy. So I asked myself what's the worst thing that can happen. Nothing. What's the worst that will happen if you can't immediately locate some information that you need? I think it's about a need for order and certainty more than the practicalities?