Hello folks,
Hopefully this is a simple question. Is it a feature of autism for someone to mask their emotions from him/herself? As in, they know they should be feeling something about a situation, but just can't get that direct conscious connection Yet, at other times feeling emotional really deeply but not knowing where it came from or why. There may be a lot of understanding of self intellectually but not emotionally.
Cheers.
I feel some things way too much and some things I seem to be numb to or take time that process. For example, there have been times when I've experienced physical pain from concern about someone I really valued. But when my cousin died, I think I was the only one in my family, except for possibly my grandad, who didn't cry until a few days after. And even then I think it was more due to a build-up of which my cousin's death formed a significant part, rather than a more specific reaction to the loss. I sometimes worry this makes me a much less empathetic person than I feel myself to be most of the time. Spiky profile again, I guess 
I totally get the imposter thing, and it's a tough one. I'm sorry you've been there too. I had this idea in my first year of uni of starting a choir consisting of everyone who had been rejected afte
auditioning for chamber choir. Hopefully the autistic community doesn't reject us, but maybe those of us who feel like imposters could start our own offshot autie-imposter clan ️
