19 year old who academically excelled at school with 3 a levels two of them A*s one A and but socially is a mess, and in the workplace.
Dropped out of uni after getting physically ill. Then got a full time job after doing a few months part time as a takeaway delivery driver which had surprisingly good pay and perks. Full time job was in an office. Got bored, found it tedious repetive, they couldn't accommodate my "bad body language" despite knowing I was autistic, and combined with memory retention issues they made me leave.
Got diagnosed with ADHD. Wanted to join the police but lifelong mental health issues stopped that. Got a new patt time job in retail, somewhere I promised to myself never to work in again but went back. Actually liked it when on the medication and they offered me promotion after a few weeks to a semi managerial role.
Started the training and it all went downhill. They said I couldn't do full time only part time so I was already disappointed. Then my new boss says I won't get full pay for another 3 months. He says I'm "pissing people off" because apparently I'm too bossy. I disclosed I was autistic/ADHD and he was like "that's fine but I'm just concerned you're always looking flustered and are going to have a meltdown".
If I was a particularly cynical person I could suggest that was some form of microagression and make a complaint but I don't care enough I just found it a bit off. And he's not wrong; I am flustered. I'm overwhelmed. I just find myself freezing now . Even when I'm not dealing with customers.
No idea what I'm going to do. Extremely depressed again , reapplied for university but not like it's going to give me a job at the end of it. Most of the job support schemes for autistic people assume you have a low IQ and have learning difficulties as in the kind you can't do well at school etc.
Just fed up and it's hurting my self esteem. But being out of a job will hurt my wallet.
