Published on 12, July, 2020
I went from freelance to full time permanent employment at age 47.
Mortgage must be paid.
Thus not feeling free = prisoner of this circumstance, being told what to do.
What’s the point of living just to pay a mortgage, hating the workplace j hating my life hoping for a distant free future?
Or is my negativity just typical of Autism spectrum disorder?
I got diagnosed in 2018.
I have a part-time job. I'm not sure I'm "successfully" holding it down. I haven't been fired, so I must be successful on some level, but I make a lot of mistakes (although fewer now I'm getting used to it). Work leaves me exhausted and burnt out and I only work two days a week. I'm hoping to set myself up with some freelance work from home soon in addition to this, but I think getting established will take time and I don't know how successful that will be either. I find meaning in my life away from work.