I don’t know how I should be feeling right about now. I feel I’m supposed to have an emotional reaction to what’s happening around me but I sort of feel numb. I’m having financial problems,family,mental and all that would normally affect me but I’m feeling meh. I’m working on my business trying to get off the ground, get more clientele, for that I need to do for advertising more work but I’m stuck, why ? I don’t have the money to do most of it and a part of me feels so numb to all of this. I’m not looking to give up, I’m a fighter, hard working , resilient but with all that the way I’m feeling right now is kind of worrying me.
About my family, I’ve always had a I’m not getting in the middle of no arguments, I get where everyone is coming from so I won’t pick a side but now it’s getting to me because it’s affecting my mental health, I want to run away but I got responsibility. I would give anything to even cry but like I said I feel meh, nothing, detached. I’m looking at everything and wishing that something can happen so I can say yeah this is what you wanted and now it’s happening and you regretting and I know I’m not that heartless. I would be sad and want to help but it only gets me hurt mental so for some reason I’m detached.
I really don’t know how I should feel…not sure where to go all I know I’m exhausted and it’s too much for me.
