Ita been a while since i last posted. I have been a little better lately at doing some things..house chores etc.
I am struggling alot to let go.of working as viable..now also in part due to having degenerative eye disorder.where.i get flashing blonbs in my eyes which may or may not lead to blindness.
Im having alot of trouble mentally accepting that regardless of reason it seems mainstream work just isnt going to happen and to somehow come.to terms with wife.doing that.
I was on holiday.and couldmt relax as.i couldnt stop thinking how people worl to survive and its normal.for.them.
Just trying to make sense of needing life.to be easier because i struggle.so much to function out there...bjt feel like a.liar when i do the occasional shop etc.
Ive also never known whats ok and not in terms of how far i go..is being a house man ok.
Anyone else feel lile this.
