I have autism, severe anxiety and both tie in with iatrophobia that's the fear of anything medical like doctors, hospitals, tests everything to do with them. All three cripple me and always lead to meltdown/shutdown it's so embarrassing when it happens because everyone stares and the doctors don't understand it at all. One receptionist even told me I was causing a scene in the middle of my meltdown. The doctors were the same, so mean. I always end up fainting. Sometimes I'm sick after. I end up crying on the floor, hide my head and can't talk to anybody. I've been poorly with this cold bug thing and a doctor wanted to see me today I didn't want to because of my fears but she wouldn't come to me and as I knew it would I went into a meltdown all because she didn't understand and wouldn't believe my fears. It happened in the waiting room and the doctor told me off after.
I'm so tired of people not understanding me. My parents are the exact same. I'm alone in this world pretty much. I'm just glad communities exist like this so we can all talk and understand each other.
