Anger issues

I’ve always had anger issues since high school. It got worse as I got older and I think it has ruined many friendships. I’m afraid of losing my current friends now because of my anger issues. How do I cope with them? I don’t like to meditate because it makes me anxious. I do like yoga and I do like to color. I was bullied a lot and I hated myself for being the weird kid in school. How do I learn to let go of my painful past? 

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  •  When I was younger, around my teen years my sister would basically just be a bully. I could take it for some time but if she would just bother me with her constant hurtful words, I would just switch to anger immediately. I sometimes got really angry. It was confusing for me and even my family. I can't explain it, it's like anger takes over. Then after it was gone I'd be okay. I tried to express later in a logical way why I would get that anger burst but it didn't make sense to them. I guess we keep so much inside and can take so much insults or verbal abuse, etc but to a certain level. Then we just burst. This never ever happened with anyone else except her. She just pushed all my buttons. After I moved away it never happened again. I choose to be with people that give me peace or just be on my own. This never happened again

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  •  When I was younger, around my teen years my sister would basically just be a bully. I could take it for some time but if she would just bother me with her constant hurtful words, I would just switch to anger immediately. I sometimes got really angry. It was confusing for me and even my family. I can't explain it, it's like anger takes over. Then after it was gone I'd be okay. I tried to express later in a logical way why I would get that anger burst but it didn't make sense to them. I guess we keep so much inside and can take so much insults or verbal abuse, etc but to a certain level. Then we just burst. This never ever happened with anyone else except her. She just pushed all my buttons. After I moved away it never happened again. I choose to be with people that give me peace or just be on my own. This never happened again

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