Feeling really low atm and have no one to talk to. Really frustrated with myself because I've gone back into my 'shell', hiding away from people because I really dont feel up to socialising.
I push everyone away because I go quiet & dont really talk or respond to anyone when I'm like this. Even taking phone calls is too much.
Ive always been on anti depressants but I've come off those now. I don't think how I'm feeling is because I'm off the tablets because even when I was on them I'd go through many periods like this.
I have no friends. Everytime I do meet people & form friendships I lose them because of when I get like I am now.
I've noticed in the groups chats with 'friends' recently that whenever I try and start conversation with anyone I get little to no response. When anyone else does they're all chatting away. I just feel like such an outsider all the time. It's been like this my whole life and it's lonely and it hurts.
Just feel like ill never be enough for anyone and going to be on my own forever. I was married once - my now ex husband told me I'm going to end up a lonely old woman and those words go through my head everytime I find myself feeling so isolated and alone again.
It's very depressing
