When i was 17 years old, my friends and I got into a small fender bender, and since that day, I can't seem to shake this feeling that I constantly am feeling. Since that day, I have been anxious to get in cars and have not went more than 15 minutes away from my home, which as you can imagine is terrible, it feels like i been in quarantine since it started until even now. Anyways, to best describe the feeling i get is hard to explain but i'll try my best. I get this feeling in my throat, almost like a blockage kind of, which then makes me start feeling like I have to puke because something feels like its stuck, then I get this terrible twisting feeling in my stomach, almost like butterflies but worse and more rapid. Aswell I get senses through my whole body that almost feel like a rush of just nerves. This situation with the car wreck was not bad at all in the overall aspect, no one got hurt, nothing. But ever since that day it has been so so hard to go places in cars or even function daily, i barely hang out with friends and when I do they come here and we just sit here, they have tried to help me for the past two years so im thankful for them but now its really up to me to fix this and take control of my life again. Thank god I work for myself, because if it wasn't for that I don't know what I would be doing with my life. I just need help and im truly truly fed up with this ***. About 3 months after the accident, I went to the doctors, they had me fill out some survey then gave me pills, which have helped some but i still have trouble going out without throwing and getting that terrible feeling. I even had a higher dose, and have been thinking about getting another high dose to see if that could help. I don't feel helpless, I know I can control my life again and I still have hope two years later, I know anxiety will never go away but I know its possible to take control of my life again and stop worrying all the time.
