I have nobody,. Nobody at all.
ok so I’m off work today, my “partner” has covid and I could’nt leave her with the kids. All afternoon our Zeus (germanshepherd) has been barking mad. Somebody kept knocking but then moving away from the door, when I finally realised I opened the door only to find our old ‘weed friend’ was there, oh my I was confused,.. he said I’m here to paint your fence can the dog get me?… ok matie you’ve been painting the fence for a few hours now, you’re not painting anywhere near the dog.. that’s what I thought.
he face when he seen me open the door. It knocked me sick.
I now have to go pick the kids up from school and him and the housing company are still paint our fence.. and the streets…. I say “alright” to our weed friend and he just stirred right through me.
When I return from picking the kids up from school, she tells me our ‘weed friend’ knocked to use the toilet.
my problem is, I’ve made my self suicidal in the past due to the way this weed friend and my partner acted.. an he just disappeared one day. I feel so sick it’s unbelievable.. his face when I opened the door.. she come running down the stairs like she knew who it was.. covid or not..
nobody understands how much my partner needs attention and how litttle I give her due to her constant/consistent cheating.
I do not want to live this life anymore,. I do not need safe guarding. But it adds to the pressure of life.
