Hello again,
knowing me, I'd probably shoot myself in the foot with this post, which is also a rehash of the first. I don't care if I do at any point, but please let me know.
It's been like a month and a half since my diagnosis. Things are looking in the right direction, but also not at the same time. I've been struggling with self identity and place in this world... The social dilemma stretching out into several things at once which brings me right back to where I started. To tell you the truth, I personally don't like the fact that I apparantly think differently than others. It's becoming more and more vivid and I keep hitting the same wall. I want an out, a cure and honestly, an "ordinary" boring life. I never wanted to live like this, and it's the autistic side of me that likes to take things away while most of my symptoms are gifts. To put it briefly, I wouldn't know how different I'd be if I didn't have mild autism.
But what's killing me is that I just so happen to be on the most complicated mental disorder there is IMO because there's no cure, no real medication to take and all of the experts on autism are very specific in symptoms which creates a wide domino effect. Not to mention that the experts on it are pretty much all saying the same ***.
Man, living with this is ******* hard.
How the hell do you deal with this?
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