Not feeling so great tonight. Pretty emotional and I'm feeling overwhelmed by everything. Had my little brother come in my room and open up about how he's feeling and how much he misses dad. Again I put on my mask and dealt with it, I was strong and his shoulder to cry on but inside I'm broken and starting to shatter like fragile glass. But I'm his big sister the oldest got to look after him and the others.
Life is so hard. Really tired of trying so hard and getting nowhere. I'm tired of the constant struggle.
I've masked and been struggling to cope for so long but I finally feel like I'm about to run out of whatever it is that keeps me going. I might call the GP on Monday that was suggested to me here but now I've got to deal with all this over the weekend. Not going to be fun.
