I've been trying to explain to a friend that I'm really scared of relationships and he doesn't understand. I'm getting the, 'oh yeah, that's normal though'. But if he could be in my head, he'd understand that I'm so scared of a relationship that if I met the right person, I'd probably chicken out and push them away, or I'd be difficult to like wreel in. I think it's mainly the change I fear, it's a massive lifestyle change, I'd have to change so much. It's so scary, I don't want it. I mean I kinda want a relationship, but the fear of the change literally puts me right off it. I also really struggle to understand relationships. Two of my flatmates have recently got boyfriends and I'm really struggling to understand it. I have actually been in a relationship before but it was years ago and with my best friend so I consider it different because it was with my best friend. The whole thing just makes me feel uncomfortable, uneasy and scared. It's just such an out of control thing, a big thing, a serious thing, I can't comprehend it. My friend doesn't seem to understand that, I mean he doesn't believe I'm autistic which is probably the main issue here... Anyone else feel this way? Is this normal? Also, I'm sorry if this is in the wrong discussion/topic area, I've just joined the site 
