You ever have days where paradoxically the good things in your life demand so much of you you feel like you can't cope?
Over the last few days I've found out about:
- being sent on a work trip overseas to network
- an opportunity to apply for a job / funding.
- a training opportunity
- a research idea I had has paid off and could lead to a new research paper as well as pleasing our collaborators.
Unfortunately pursuing all of these things feels like a lot of work and I'm struggling a little bit. Feels a bit like a mini shut down. Not that I'm really shutting down but my output is suffering.
I'm juggling supporting a close friend through severe depression and my brother through depression + health & financial problems. It feels like my friends ... well some of them don't always feel like friends, they're a bit of an emotional drain but they never seem to be supporting me. The friends who used to support me no longer give me the time of day. Personal admin is hell. I have a car that needs attention, things I need to chase online where stuff hasn't been delivered. Even basic things like washing / hygiene are starting to suffer.
Is it strange that sometimes it the good things, the opportunities that you've been hoping for, that drain you?
