I had to leave everything behind and live in pretty shitty conditions until my family had everything settled out. I pretty much had to skip one full year of school and adapt to a new language and system but I did with relative ease (actually.. maybe not). The problem is, after only about 3 weeks of primary school I had to go to secondary school and at first it was ok but then I quickly got left behind. As I've always gotten good grades before and also my crush started ignoring me, along with my family's poor financial situation at the time I got in a deep depression at about 13 years old. I only now realize that I had problems even earlier, during summer when everything was actually really well (my family was in a better situation and I basically spent time at the pool with friends in front of my house). I just don't understand what is wrong with me. For the last couple of years, I've felt trapped and unfulfilled. This led me to a (really stupid) suicide attempt and frequent self harm. When things were much worse 2, or almost 3 years ago my parents were too busy with work and I couldn't seek professional help because they didn't finish the papers at the time (basically rough situation).
