Finally I broke down and told my friend everything

I generally feel alright these day’s and today is my 20th birthday. My day has been very good and I went out for a few drinks with my friend and just got home. In the beginning we had very fun and talked about a lot. After a while of talking about funny things I started to talk about my biggest problems.

and I totally “broke down”! I got a little bit drunk and told her about all the dumb things I’ve done . I told her about the time I almost killed myself and broke down crying. I feel like i just lifted the biggest rock from my chest and I feel so hopeful for the future. I really feel like I learned A LOT

If anyone reads this please talk to someone close to you or even message them. They will not judge you at all.