Basically... a couple of weeks ago I told my friend that I was struggling spending time with her as I felt that she was relying on me to make conversation and autistic me was struggling with that. I only told her because I thought being honest about it was the best thing to do however, I am regretting it now. We still met up the next morning however she then left and self-harmed which made me feel guilty (she made a point of telling me she did it). We then stopped meeting which was cool with me but then we stopped talking which didn’t make much sense.
We made up over Christmas and she decided that she didn’t want to wait for me outside school in the mornings, but she would wait where we usually hang out, she also decided that she didn’t want to sit next to me in lessons which to be fair, I am finding difficult because I get anxious in lessons. So anyway, we have been talking loads over Christmas and are completely fine and then this morning she didn’t message before she left for school which she usually does but I assumed she was just running late, so I walked into school and went to meet her however she wasn’t there. About 5/10 minutes later she appeared, and I assumed that she just had to do something before we met however she said hi and I said something about what I did the other day and she said "yeah" and then walked off so obviously she doesn’t want to meet in the mornings at all now.
It’s just confusing. If she has been talking to me over Christmas, why would she suddenly stop talking to me at school?
Alisha xx
p.s. I am just feeling a bit low and lost now which is a shame because I have had a really positive few weeks.
