I really want to hear from a grown up with ASD and ask how do you get on? I am a 33 year old female and just found out I have ASD this year,however It seems there is not much I can find to help with it. Just cus I finally have a word to explain why I have meltdowns and feel like I just want to be alone does not minimize them or help me to deal.Even though some people in my life try to understand, many of my family members remain confused and frustrated by my behavior and think of me very badly. they think i'm lazy and should "just get a job". It seems like I still catch a lot of criticism and services for adults where I live are next to nothing. Lately I feel like life is not worth living. I spent near my whole life trying to figure out what is "off" in me. I saw countless psychiatrists over 20 years. I am outraged that no one caught this when I was a child because I look over the criteria and I had EVERY core symptom so clearly it should jumped out and smacked them in the face. I feel betrayed by the medical community and on top of this, I finally have some answers and it seems like there is nothing really I can do. I had a severe melt down last tuesday. I do everything i can to avoid one happening because I always feel so humiliated afterwards but I woke up and my mom had driven to another state without telling me ( I live with her) and decided to just up and go before I woke up with zero notice for 7 days. I completely melted down and nearly broke the kitchen table with my head and screamed for a few hours. I then spent 4 days in complete isolation crying whenever I woke up and sleeping between crying spells for 18 hours at a time. I realized that this might not ever end. That no matter how I try to avoid another "episode" that life is always gonna find a way to shock me. I'll have to live in a closet until I die...and that feels like not living at all. I don't know what to do. I thought finding out what is wrong with my brain would be the beginning of solutions but now it feels hopeless