Published on 12, July, 2020
Since graduating from college I've been strugglign to adapt to society, I've been unable to hold down a job and have been dealing with depression, mood swings and a whole host of mood swings. My wife pointed out to me a while back that I showed a lot of signs of autism, and rethinking about my childhood (I was always paranoid that people weren't telling me that there was something wrong with me. I wasn't like the other kids, I did well in school, but I didn't act like them, I didn't talk like them, and I didn't think like them), I couldn't read until I was in 4th grade, and the only solice outside of learning I ever took was video games. It was the world I understood best. My psychiatrist agrees that I might have autism but is telling me that a diagnosis would do nothing for me, and that kaiser, at least the one I go to, will only diagnos children and that they don't see a point to diagnosing adults because we should already have coping mechanisms. School was the only thing I ever understood. It made sense. I have a schedule, I attend, I learn at my own pace, I can leave and return, I gain knowledge, I grow in power, I move onto the next adventure. It was even easier to be social, I felt safe. It was an environment I knew. Anyways, I forgot what my point was. I guess I just wanted to be heard, realize I'm not crazy, that I do have this problem and that I can finally start finding resources to help me succeed.
Laddie,
I don't think that anyone should bar you and I will support your call for free speech here.
I don't think that the OP deserves to be tarred with the accusation of infiltration. There is no evidence whatsoever of anything that he has said being in any sense motivated by big business opportunism. Perhaps you should read his posts and clarify why you introduced that subject into this thread?
It strikes me that if you are at odds with all of your friends then there are two possibilities
a) they are all wrong
b) you might be the one making an error
Sometimes, it pays to listen more and speak less. Perhaps the truth is out there but you haven't found it yet?
It strikes me that if you are taking drugs and alcohol in response to your situation then your post may be a product of that rather than of your own innate consciousness?
We do live in a democracy and, for all of its obvious faults, it is the least bad system for government that we have found so far. You can lessen its impact by withdrawing from social life, and society at large, but I don't think that that is a healthy route to follow.