Published on 12, July, 2020
Erm, right, OK. I've been wondering for a couple of years if I have Asperger Syndrome. i finally plucked up the courage to visit my GP a couple of weeks ago, who has referred me to the local MH team. Sadly, they have only offered me an appointment in November (more than three months away). I just wondered if anybody (particularly females, I'm a 26 year old female) could have a look at my main problems & see if they sound like typical problems faced by girls with AS. I have a Cadet course in October that may be slightly easier if they know I have AS, but I don't feel comfortable telling them without an official diagnosis. Basically;
I apologise for the length of the post. There are other things I struggle with but I think I've said enough for now. If anybody has any coping tips, they would be much appreciated.
Bit of an update for you, I'm now working 8-4 Mon-Fri. And my sleeping is still the same. In fact I was falling asleep on the bus home the other day and my dreams were so vivid I confused reality with the dreams. In my dreams I was having proper conversations with people, was doing things I would do normally, and generally just going about my day to day life. Does anybody else get this & how do you deal with it?
Something else of note - I had less sleep last night than I did that day, yet I stayed awake all the way home today (might have had something to do with walking halfway, but maybe not). However today I really had to fight the urge to sleep at my desk, whereas the other day I had no issues with that. I have also fallen asleep during meetings at work, in vehicles and also at a football match!
This now really starting to get to me, and I agreed to go to the gym with my step-dad tomorrow, however I am dreading that alarm going off in the morning & want to just stay in bed more than anything.
I am halfway through Aspergirls and can relate so much to it.
Some days I think I am the world's biggest freak who will never understand human conversation. Others, I think I am merely mirroring Aspergers traits and am not actually on the spectrum.
However, I have discovered the following:
Please, can anybody relate to this, or give me coping strategies to help. I have spoken to a friend's husband, who is affectionately known as 'the autism whisperer'. He said he thought I was suffering quite badly with anxiety (having never met me & going by me describing my main issues via email) but I can't say I feel particularly anxious about anything. So basically I have no clue. I guess that is explained by the alexithymia.
Oh I dunno. Just ready to give up trying.
Thanks for getting this far (if you're still reading),
Jess