Hello everyone, I've just joined, and thought of share how I've made a big mess of my life.
Things were going okay for a while. I got married, got a new job, and then we moved house. That's been a nightmare and my wife hates the new place. I've been struggling at home and work over the past 7-8 months, and looking back it seems to be down to burnout.
I had a couple of issues at work and was put on informal improvement review. About that time I suspected my neurodiversity and reached out to my GP. That was my first mistake, as I didn't consult my wife about it first and she was furious.
Now I'm on stage 2 of a formal improvement plan, as working my fingers to the bone isn't enough for my line manager, whose main criticism seems to be my communication.
My wife thinks I've read about autism on the internet and now I'm just acting like it by using buzzwords like masking, because the man she married wasn't autistic, and she doesn't want this. Any time I try to take initiative in the household I'm doing it wrong, and any time I don't I'm being lazy.
We've just had another blazing row where she doesn't want to hear anything about autism, or anything I say, to be honest. Whenever I try to talk to her she accuses me of gaslighting
What the hell do I do? I feel like seeking an autism diagnosis has ruined my life.