introducing myself

Hi 

I am new here. I don’t officially have an autism diagnosis, but I am pretty sure that I am, and I have been on a waiting list to get one for more than two years. I don’t know what difference it would make knowing that I am autistic or not. And part of me wouldn’t trust a negative diagnosis anyway. I feel like I am in a weird limbo of not knowing - well, I think I know.

I work with autistic people, and over the years, I have done quite a bit of training, and the more I find out about it, the more it seems to fit. Reading through some of the threads on this forum, I can definitely relate to much of it. 

I am in my early 50s, so it is very odd coming to terms with the idea of being autistic at this stage in my life.  It leaves me questioning much of what I thought I knew, and coming to understand some of the struggles that I have faced in my life through this new lens. I  have lived with anxiety and depression for a long time.  I also find that I have very limited energy, which can easily be depleted, especially in social situations or in overwhelming environments. There are many other things I could list: I find change very unsettling, I struggle to make friends, I have quite obsessive interests in very specific things, etc... 

 

Regards 

Miles

 

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  • Hi Miles, 

    So much of what you wrote resonated with me. I am in my mid 70s and have recently had my assessment. My NHS assessor extended my waiting time so I opted for a private one. I am so glad I did it. I feel a much greater sense of personal peace than I have ever done before. I am constantly evaluating my former life with my autism ruler. So many mysteries and confusion been have been accepted, understood, resolved or dismissed. I am being a lot kinder about my past life than I used to be, which is better for my mental health and anxiety issues. I too, do not like change, have unusual hobbies and do not understand how get the friends thing works.  

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  • Hi Miles, 

    So much of what you wrote resonated with me. I am in my mid 70s and have recently had my assessment. My NHS assessor extended my waiting time so I opted for a private one. I am so glad I did it. I feel a much greater sense of personal peace than I have ever done before. I am constantly evaluating my former life with my autism ruler. So many mysteries and confusion been have been accepted, understood, resolved or dismissed. I am being a lot kinder about my past life than I used to be, which is better for my mental health and anxiety issues. I too, do not like change, have unusual hobbies and do not understand how get the friends thing works.  

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