introducing myself

Hi 

I am new here. I don’t officially have an autism diagnosis, but I am pretty sure that I am, and I have been on a waiting list to get one for more than two years. I don’t know what difference it would make knowing that I am autistic or not. And part of me wouldn’t trust a negative diagnosis anyway. I feel like I am in a weird limbo of not knowing - well, I think I know.

I work with autistic people, and over the years, I have done quite a bit of training, and the more I find out about it, the more it seems to fit. Reading through some of the threads on this forum, I can definitely relate to much of it. 

I am in my early 50s, so it is very odd coming to terms with the idea of being autistic at this stage in my life.  It leaves me questioning much of what I thought I knew, and coming to understand some of the struggles that I have faced in my life through this new lens. I  have lived with anxiety and depression for a long time.  I also find that I have very limited energy, which can easily be depleted, especially in social situations or in overwhelming environments. There are many other things I could list: I find change very unsettling, I struggle to make friends, I have quite obsessive interests in very specific things, etc... 

 

Regards 

Miles

 

Parents Reply
  • Thanks bunny for your response. I am aware of the right to choose. I figured that as I have been waiting for such a long time it must be coming up fairly soon. Also I understand that the local nhs diagnosis is in person and more detailed, which I think I would prefer. But maybe I should reconsider. 

Children
  • Thanks this was helpful and prompted me to go back to the doctor and choose a different assessment centre through right to choose. I hope that this will be quicker.

  • You're welcome! 

    I figured that as I have been waiting for such a long time it must be coming up fairly soon
    But maybe I should reconsider. 

    Of course, it's very much up to you. My mental health was deteriorating during my waiting period. As much as it might have been nice to go through the NHS process, I knew that I couldn't wait for it.

    Although they couldn't / wouldn't give me an official NHS timing estimate at that point, I was warned to expect at least another year of waiting if I stayed on that list, and perhaps a lot longer.

    After switching to RTC, I was diagnosed within a few months. 18 months after my diagnosis, I discovered that I'd accidentally been left on the NHS list. I didn't find that out because I'd got the front of the queue - I'd just happened to contact that team for a different reason. So my wait would definitely have still been ongoing at that point.

    Perhaps the merits of each option are something you could discuss with your doctor, if you feel that would be helpful.