finally imploded!- and here I have landed

Hi everyone,

I am joining this forum looking for people that might understand me and help me understand myself better.

My name is Mirjam and I am 46 years old. After having been told for as long as I can remember by everyone (even an employer in front of all the employees !) that I am weird, atypical, strange, socially awkward, bizarre, quirky, special, odd, excentric, peculiar, singular and any adjective in between (autistic even!), I have finally started to wonder if they don’t have a point. I have read up un autism and immediately realized that I am checking almost all boxes. It seems that all my weird quirks are actually pretty normal, for neurodivergents that is. This soul-searching came in the middle of a complete burnout. My therapist, (I can’t remember how many I have already seen and how often I have been told I just don’t want to get better and to do the work) very reluctantly had me sent to do the autism testing. I am a teacher and am struggling with the decision of whether to change employment….

I am looking forward to constructive discussions.

Big wave,

Mirjam

Parents
  • Hi Mirjam!

    Welcome to the forum, your story sounds so familiar, that it isn't too you hit that burnout wall and start to find out about autism that suddenly it all starts clicking together doesn't it! It's a strange feeling to realise that other people have the same quirks and you aren't alone with it all! I hope the testing gives you some answers, it can be a great relief. Though it can take time, it's a good place to start reading up more and chatting to more people in the same boat! 

    I hope you can find the forum useful for you!

Reply
  • Hi Mirjam!

    Welcome to the forum, your story sounds so familiar, that it isn't too you hit that burnout wall and start to find out about autism that suddenly it all starts clicking together doesn't it! It's a strange feeling to realise that other people have the same quirks and you aren't alone with it all! I hope the testing gives you some answers, it can be a great relief. Though it can take time, it's a good place to start reading up more and chatting to more people in the same boat! 

    I hope you can find the forum useful for you!

Children
No Data