Hello all, I’m feeling a bit anxious to introduce my self, only one question kicking me - what I supposed to tell about myself? How to be interesting? Yeeee, my people please here,. In short, I was diagnosed EU (Lithuania) with AUDHD at age 43. 10 month ago. In first I felt relieved, like finally I know I’m not problem or broken how felt all my life. But after that, come strong imposter syndrome which I have in all situations and all my feelings and everything I do or say or feel- like lie, big lie that I’m autistic with adhd. I know I’m not, but this sense can’t leave me. Now I move after brake back to UK and feeling like here I’m not belong too. No where I’m belong, so not here too. Im
feeling like here in abroad witch is my home now I’m not valid again, like my deep knowing that I am who I am it’s fake again. Also grief. Oh this one is strong. For years Trying do self work , before even diagnosed, but finally even here I do understand that self help books, groups, make more damage to me, than actual help. I’m feeling so alone. My surrounding don’t even believe that I’m neurodivergent because I know how to mask, when learning unmask it’s look to me like I’m faking, to those who knows me for years that I’m acting new performance too, just to new people if they same like me neurodivergent im feeling accepted but if have deal with neurotipical person- and im
viling do not perform and be true me, being awkward for them, not me, and finally I’m feeling more alone than before trying socialize :) this one is almost funny, here I think I can more accept myself. Why im
here? I’m trying to listen to others pears Ike myself, and to my psychiatry -that try support groups specially designed to neurodivergent peoples, feel that I can belong in the way I am, that others feeling same. To drop my mask and hug my imposter syndrome - I’m here alive, and im
belong, even with my broken English or struggle
to communicate or just being like
being me. Thank you to let me in :) 
