Hey
I'm an 18 year old girl living with my parents. I was diagnosed with High-Functioning Autism when I was in secondary school. I was around 12. I had a lot of difficulty throughout school. I never really fit in. People always thought I was weird and socially awkward, and I completely understand that. Despite being aware, I still find it very difficult to abide to social norms.
I dropped out of my first secondary school when I was 13 due to the school not catering to my needs and being severely bullied by other students. I went a year without going to school, in which I spoke to and met people online. A lot of the people I met online were from the USA which really screwed up my sleeping pattern, to put it bluntly.
In that time I met my ex. He didn't live too far away so I'd meet him frequently. I was 14 at the time, almost 15, when I started to date him. At the start of our relationship everything was good. I got into a school for special needs students, and that went well. I didn't really speak to anyone, but I got along with the teachers very well.
I left there when I was 16 with relatively good GCSE results, but it was when I went to college to study art and design that everything started to fall apart.
I made friends at college, but there was a lot of issues with the friend circle and it ended up falling apart. My ex started to get abusive, manipulative and controlling but I refused to end it because I felt so strongly for him. During the second year of college (which was actually a new course), it started to get worse. My friends wouldn't speak to me anymore and I was in a class with a bunch of people that I didn't know, so I never spoke to anyone. Not to mention my ex was getting worse and worse, accusing me of cheating, things like that. I got severely depressed. I broke up with him in April and I left college at the same time. I'm still really not over him. And although he purposely hurt me, I still feel really strongly for him. He went off with all of my friends so I have no one now.
Now I'm sort of in this situation where I'm not actually doing anything. I don't really have anyone to speak to and I feel really lonely a lot of the time. I sort of just sit at my PC all day. I want to do things but I don't know where abouts I can go to meet people.
I suppose on a more positive note, I should talk about my interests. I enjoy video games and drawing. There's not much more I do than that to be honest, but I want to find new things I can be interested in.
As for what I want to do, I'd like to go back to college. It's a little late now, but maybe next year. I'd get a job if I really have to, but I'm really timid around people.
So yeah, that's me. I'm sorry this is so negative, but hi anyway.
