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Hello Everyone I'm Dave, I didn't know I had Autism until 2 years ago 45 years old now and struggled with noises, bangs etc always presumed they where personal, struggled socialising then over doing or clinging onto friends then that would fall apart, its cost me my fiance she left after 7 years, I didn't understand why I always felt lonely, or people saw me as strange. I'm at the stage where I am not living alone, no friends and struggling tbh, I'm scared no friend, no relationship will ever happen again, I fear getting close to anyone because they will see my autism or mental health and like everyone run. So I'm reaching out to others who are gently graced with this still no fully understood diagnosis to see how or if what I said connects.

  • Its awful being on the outside looking in. I once sang a Solo in a school production of Hamlin town where the Pied Piper steals all the children away- apart from a cripple boy who couldnt keep up,  the song was 'all alone', i can recite the lyrics now and at around 14/15 it resonated. I got a diagnosis at 57. 

    Welcome

  • Hi Lonehare12, thank you for sharing that, there isn't many groups here specifically for autism based diagnosis, Clactons somewhat an odd culture but I wont give up, but I also can't keep living isolated.

    Thank you I hope I do settle in here to, be good to break free from these cold chains.

  • Hi  and welcome 

    I’m sorry you are having a tough time. I feel lonely and different too but what helps is meeting people who understand and this is a great place for that. I also meet a couple of in person autistic groups which are very gentle and accepting.

    I hope you settle in here soon and enjoy chatting with us.