Hello, I'm not Sia.

Hello everybody.

My name isn’t Sia. The singer Sia once helped me feel empowered, and it's kind of ironic and funny now that she's considered a controversial name in the autistic community. Anyway…

I’m not new to the online community. I'm a long-time lurker who was diagnosed as autistic in January this year. I also have ADHD. My ADHD and autism were diagnosed in 2024 and 2026 respectively - to the surprise of absolutely nobody who knows me. At the time of writing, I'm 34.

With that said, I'm trying to reach out into supportive spaces where I can. It turns out that knowing a lot about autism and identifying as autistic (and ADHD!) still doesn't fortify you against the "But you were fine yesterday / last week / last month / last year / in your last job / when you were at school" brigade.

Here are a few things about me:

I have a brother with profound autism.

I currently work in the social care sector.

I love all kinds of music, especially metal, electronic music, 80s pop, and some genres I can't even begin to explain.

I love a good cover song.

I love oversized clothes.

I enjoy video games. I'm currently playing through Baldur’s Gate III and Assassin’s Creed: Valhalla, depending on the mood.

I love writing. It's incredibly therapeutic.

I play piano by ear.

I love learning. I recently completed a Level 3 mental health course just for the joy of it.

I’m either incredibly loud or incredibly quiet and "invisible". There's no middle ground.

I'm usually rubbish at remembering to check my messages, forums, and the like (thanks, ADHD), but I'm looking forward to hearing everyone's stories and maybe sharing some of my own. Or, maybe just have some lighthearted conversations about cover songs.

  • I can't watch it without crying! I'm like the embarrassing "theatre kid" in the audience throughout the entire production. I've seen it four times, and I intend to see it as many times as practically and financially possible throughout my life. 

  • I always wanted to see the Lion King stage show, I remember when they first announced it, but I didn't ask my parents as it was beyond their means, just a secret wish I kept to myself.

    I did finally get to go a few years ago, it came to Edinburgh in 2020, I didn't get tickets but the obvious happened for that time. But when they came back a few years later, they put on more dates and I managed to get tickets and was finally able to fulfil my ambition. The kids thought it was okay, but I was enraptured!

  • I can only imagine a tiny profdanger, instructing toys on music and how to get a job.

  • That pretty cool, how old were you then? (If that's not rude to ask)

  • Speaking of different generational views, The Lion King was the first movie I ever saw in a movie theater!

  • Yes, we couldn't go to the cinema to see it, but we got given a bootleg VHS from the boyfriend of an aunt. (Lion King certainly outlasted him!). 

    And it was like nothing else Disney had done before and I was hooked! I know what you mean about memory storage, I still know all the lines, but if I meet someone and they tell me their name, I've instantly forgotten it a minute later! (I have to see it written down to remember). Got to save room for the important stuff! 

    Yeah the Elton John tracks are awful for me too, the sound tracks capture at least a bit of an African vibe, but his one's lose all of it. Didn't the dvd have a music video or something from him and it was really pants? Lol I'm going to have to go watch the dvd again, though without the kids as they can't stand it or me singing along!

  • I love hearing about your experience from a different generational point of view. The DVD was what created a monster in me. I still have all the bonus material from disc 2 committed to memory. I could make room in my brain for something useful, like remembering where I last left my debit card, but where's the fun in that?  

    I can't believe there's someone else out there who even knows that Elton John has a version of I Just Can't Wait to Be King, let alone someone who finds it cringy. Truth be told, I don't like any of Elton John's versions from the film. I think they distract from the essence of the soundtrack. 

  • Exactly! I really liked the hyenas too, I thought they were great characters.

  • Be Prepared is an underrated gem imo

    That and Hellfire from The Hunchback of Notre Dame. Disney villains got the really powerful songs lol

  • Oh I used to love reciting scenes too, especially if you got to say the end of circle of life with full triumphant ending in your head and then did the Scary/Zazu/Mufasa scene. Sadly my kids never got into Disney and don't appreciate me still knowing all the words by heart (it is very hard to stop mid-song)! 

    I don't think I had as much access to production lore so I bet you are more knowledgeable, though I did collect the magazine, the height of my fandom was '94-96 and I didn't have a computer then, let alone internet!. Sadly then I went to high school and felt I had to pack away my extensive lion king shrine (things I regret doing), but the movie is still there in the back of my head for viewing whenever I want to indulge! When the dvd came out when I was in uni, me and my flatmate got copies, and as she worked in WHSmiths, she came home with the massive display of adult Simba we had in the flat then! I did enjoy that resurgence! 

    My top favourite song was 'Be prepared', followed by 'I just can't wait to be a King', though I do like all of them, except the Elton John version which I felt were a bit cringy but I did listen to the whole album!

  • Your 'over sharing' is appreciated. I'm not in a phase of life like that right now, but it's very relatable. I hope the effects of your medication can eventually stabilise, or you can find ones that work better for your quality of life. It's exhausting to not be able to engage with anything you enjoy.

  • Hello Slight smile

    I've always wanted to try the Sims, but I find the many expansion packs and 'Stuff' packs to be overwhelming. If you want to talk about how you've built your world in it, or exchange diagnosis stories, I'd love to hear it.

  • Hi, welcome to the community as an active user, not only lurking. Honestly I also lurk quite much but dont write so much. I also like music, but I listen only one genre and I love space, although right now I'm on meds that make me feel irritated, by everything,  including my beloved space. Only yesterday I was able to watch on YouTube about Jupiter and it's closest, volcanic moon Io. I used to do everyday, but now a screen flashing pictures and voice talking makes me feel irritated to the point that it shakes me from inside. So my intrest is periodically not so special. Sorry for big overshare. I'm usually invisible,  but I also relate to being sometimes too much.

  • She is a rescue so timid but friendly (when she wants something) All jumpers should be oversized ! 

  • I'm not having this conversation without a lawyer present. 

  • I love that you have the sort of relationship where she's willing to share her life with you. A lot of children are left to their own devices, literally and metaphorically, when it comes to engaging with the internet. 

    You just described my childhood, and one of the key pillars of my diagnosis! I never went anywhere without my CD walkman. I could recite parts of the film to the soundtrack, I would replay scenes in my head to each song, and I had so many ideas in my own head canon for films and books. I was also an embarrassingly argumentative little twerp on fan forums, whenever somebody misquoted any lore or facts about the film's production.

  • Hello everybody.

    My name isn’t Sia.

    Hmm, that sounds suspiciously like something Sia would say if she didn’t want people to think she was Sia…