Hello everyone,
I have been diagnosen with ADHD in my late twenties after a lot of misdiagnosis - once it was borderline "but your social behaviour does not really fit" maybe some OCD... "or do you just overcompensate with making up rules for everything?" ...
I feel so many diagnoses seem to get close, but yet nothing really seems to fit.
While getting familiar with the whole ADHD stuff, I heard and read of so many women who got diagnosed only as an adult and seem to have both ADHD and autism but got misdiagnosed a lot before - and to many things they share, I can relate.
People seem to think that I fit in, but for me it does not feel like that at all.
But I dont know... my social behaviour is so different depending on the situation but I generally get in touch with people easily - which I dont even want - but I talk way to much. Always about something that I have a temporary "hyperfocus" with. After conversations even with close friends I am exhausted and I feel I am masking the whole time. And I feel like even I would be annoyed by myself if I would meet me. Like, I leave my Apartment to do laundry and really feel anxious to meet someone on the way, but as soon as I meet someone I have no idea how to talk to them without ending up sitting in their Apartment drinking coffee and sharing all Details of my current projects or whatever.
Anyway after reading a few comments and posts here, I thought it maybe does not matter so much what we call it: kind of a lot of people seem to go through similar situations/problems/thoughts. I hope to get some new Ideas on how to approach some things in life differently and maybe from perspectives I never thought of before.
Currently I am on ill leave because of my latest big meltdowns at work (which is nearly a constantly building up yearly event).
So I have time to be super focussed on structuring my apartment more practical for cleaning and creating cleaning habits which are fun because I love a clean and sorted environment but I am terrible at maintaining one. It is somewhat difficult because I live with my partner and I notice that i am really not flexible in changing up rules, once I created them, so I might have a meltdown if I come home to a sponge or some paper trash in the wrong place.
When I am not buying more cleaning materials I will be taking care of my plants (currently I am trying to take care of orchids but they are sooooo slow).
I have two cats but they are only allowed in certain rooms (my partners decision).
Feel free to let me know which flowers or plants or cleaning equipment you are obsessed with, but it might happen that next week I suddenly feel like getting started with skydiving or macramee - you never know.
(I hope things will get more chill someday)
